February 27, 2011

Combined Realities = A Dream?

Posted in Uncategorized at 4:23 PM by brittygirl2

I just recently had the pleasure of Garrett visiting me here in Chiang Rai for a little over a week to spend some time with me, do some filming for Destiny Rescue, and experience Thailand for the first time! Despite the time going by very quickly, we enjoyed every minute of it and packed in as much as we could. It felt a bit surreal when he first arrived…like having someone come from part of my life back home, combined with what my life is like here, sort of felt like a dream!

First there was work..

Then there was play...

But we started with laughs..

and ended with laughs.

We went out for coffee, went bowling, got a fish massage, enjoyed shopping at the day & night markets, visited my favorite restaurants, walked around town to see the sights and take pictures, played games with the kids, visited one of the hill tribes, made pancakes, played skip-bo, and watched movies (until we fell asleep), just to name a few!! It was so nice to have him here and we laughed so much, it did my heart good. I’m so thankful God provided and made a way for him to come, for my sake and Destiny Rescues!! I look forward to seeing the documentary he is working on to help spread the word about human trafficking and the ministry that Destiny Rescue is doing around the world. He captured some amazing footage and I can’t wait to see the finished product! If anyone is reading this that supported Garrett financially on his trip, or lifted him up in prayer, then I want to thank you for your support.. Thank you for investing in the future of seeing the kids here experience hope and new life, and for the personal blessing that I also received in having Garrett here!

February 13, 2011

Lazy Weekend

Posted in Uncategorized at 11:02 AM by brittygirl2

I know I haven’t written anything in awhile.. and I’ve been wanting to, I just haven’t known what to write about!! It has been a laid back weekend and I am grateful because its given me time to complete things off of my “want”  to-do list. Yesterday I received a package from home and was so excited to find treasures and goodies inside, thanks to my Mom!!! Oftentimes you don’t even realize how much of a difference little things make, and how much closer to home they make you feel!

I gave Ginger a bath (which she does not like) and tried to scrub all the caked mud off of her. Digging is a favorite way for her to occupy her time, little stinker! She looks so small and pathetic when her fur is wet, so the best part is drying her off with a towel and then brushing her to make her fluffy again. She’s such a cuddle dog and seems to think that its not possible to have to much attention lol!

I took advantage of the many apples that I had and made some applesauce, yummy 🙂 I actually miss cooking, and the smell of cinnamon was comforting. It brought back memories of being in the kitchen with Mom and helping her make dinner or try some new recipe. I had Japanese curry for the first time last night, very delicious! In America I think we associate a lot of thai and asian food with curries, and they do eat curry…but not as much as we think they do.

I walked to the market to buy some fresh oranges and sticky rice, and I couldn’t help but stop for a treat along the way. There’s a guy that sells banana fritters and they are so tasty! It’s a thickly sliced banana that’s deep fried and then coated in sesame seeds. Similar to a donut with banana in the middle, and they’re made hot and fresh! I also got some pictures printed at the photo shop so I can do a picture wall in my room. I’m so excited, and very much looking forward to organizing the pictures in some artsy, fun way.

I just finished skyping my family and love the times I can connect face to face. Whoever invented video chat and its capabilities was genius 🙂 It’s been warm here (like always) and I really miss the snow! The cool mornings here however are a nice change to the heat and I enjoy the breeze.

Well this is nothing much exciting but just a few thoughts that might be new to you! Please feel free to give feedback or let me know if there’s anything in particular you want me to write about! I am missing you all, and grateful for the prayers!

January 27, 2011

Random Facts

Posted in Uncategorized at 7:39 PM by brittygirl2

Here’s some totally random information that some of you might enjoy! 🙂

  1. Some of the girls have a hard time pronouncing the “t” in my name so it comes out sounding like “Brisney”.
  2. I have not used a hair dryer on my hair in over 3 months.
  3. I can buy an amazing hot latte for only $1.50!
  4. It takes 1 hour + 15 min for my washing machine to run a cycle, 10 min for me to hang it out on the line, and about a day for the sun to dry it.
  5. The sun rises at 6 am and sets at 6 pm.
  6. After 1 month of living here my brain finally stopped trying to convert Baht into USD.
  7. I now think that a squatty is a normal toilet.
  8. My water pitcher heats boiling, hot scorching water in less than 3 minutes; I timed it.
  9. After learning my lesson the hard way, I always shake out my laundry to rid of any wasps, extremely large beetles, or red ants that hide inside and then attack after the clothing is already on your body.
  10. I’m starting to think food is bland without chili peppers in it.
  11. A lot of nights what sings me to sleep is Thai Karaoke.
  12. I woke up one morning and it was so cold, I could see my breathe while I was still in bed. That same day it got up to the mid 90’s. Crazy!
  13. Whenever you pay for something in the store and you give the cashier bills + change to round up or down the total, they never know what to do! It confuses them and you usually get more change back.
  14. The mosquitos are in my kitchen & bathroom are present 24 hours a day, and I am not joking either!
  15. There’s a few mango trees in my side yard, totally awesome!
  16. I have eaten the inside of a cow’s stomach.
  17. One time I saw a gecko that had a head at both ends of the body….no tail! It was creepy.
  18. Sticky rice is awesome; I started out hating it, but now I can’t get enough of it!
  19. I celebrated Australian Day for the first time (and maybe the last).
  20. When I was touring Laos previously, some guy randomly came up and asked if he could have his picture taken with me!

January 20, 2011

Just A Normal Day

Posted in Uncategorized at 4:17 PM by brittygirl2

As I walked to the Rescue Home early this morning my thoughts drifted to my time here in Thailand and I began praying for my day. Before I knew it, I was quickly approaching the school. The girls were sitting on the front steps waiting for me, their smiles bigger than the sun. They jumped up and began greeting me with the traditional “Sa waa dee ka”, which means “hello”. They open up their arms to pass along a hug and we linger there for a moment before stepping inside. I give them  instructions to shampoo and section their mannequins to get ready for a haircut. The sounds of water echo through the open room and the bubbles begin sudsing each sink as the fragrance of the shampoo fills our senses. There is lively chatter among them as they take turns, telling each other how it should correctly be done. One of them accidentally shoots water everywhere, past the sink and onto the floor. The squeals tell it all as they race to grab towels to try and mop up the floor. They sneak glances at me, and I can’t contain my laughter at the sight. They move on to sectioning and I smile slightly as they show their personalities at every step. One takes 6 blue clips, one takes 6 yellow, one takes 4 purple and 2 pink, and yet another takes one of every color. So cute 🙂 They race to see who can finish first and hear those coveted magic words from me: “Very good”. It’s become a joke among them to see who can get the best verbal praise from me of their finished work. I pick up a set of clippers and begin explaining how I want them to cut the hair. Immediately their mouths drop open at the sight of what they are about to use, followed by “Ohhhhh”. One girl picks up a set up clippers and pretends to shave another girls head. We all burst out laughing, unable to contain it! However the buzzing of clippers soon becomes the only sound in the room as each student focuses silently in concentration. Occasionally they would glance at the person next to them, and point out something they had done wrong which would send them all into another fit of laughter. Finally they each stood back to admire their work, pleased with what had been accomplished. I move along checking each mannequin only to hear yet again, more laughter. I look up to see them standing there pointing at my shirt thats covered in tiny pieces of hair. They rush over and begin dusting off all the hair so that they can concentrate on what I’m saying instead of what I’m wearing. Their smiles go from ear to ear and they try to quiet their laughter as I give final instructions. I love their joy; its contagious. It’s part of what makes everyday so fun.

Everyday is an adventure. Every day a reason to laugh. Every day is hope for what’s ahead, and every day marks our lives with the true life that fills us.

January 17, 2011

Love So Real

Posted in Uncategorized at 4:33 PM by brittygirl2

My time with the Lord lately has been so sweet, so intimate…it almost feels sacred. I find myself longing for the time each day when I can sit before his feet and gaze into his eyes. I love to soak in the fragrance of his love, and feel his presence like hot oil being poured over me. It’s a place of divine beauty. I gaze upon his face, and his eyes take me straight to the places of his heart. My eyes remain fixed upon him and I can’t seem to look away….I am hopelessly lost in him. He is passionate in his expression and his eyes begin dancing with flames as he raises his hands and speaks a blessing over me. I am his creation… made in his image. His face glows like that of someone in love, and he smiles at me gently. I run into his arms and he pulls me into his embrace. He dissolves any unbelief in my heart and my trust is completely in him; I have not a care in the world. He has taken the burden I laid at his feet, and given me his instead; one that is of unequal trade. He speaks my name over and over…its like a rhythm of sweet music to my ears that brings comfort and reassurance. He stands to intercede on my behalf and with one raise of his voice, one thought from his mind…my enemies are defeated. I am convinced that nothing can ever take me away from my God. Nothing is as strong as love that is forged by the blood of sacrifice, the fire of redemption and the tears of desire. He loves me. When I wake in the morning and see the sunrise….I see a sun that rises for me. When I look at the blossoming trees….I see trees that bloom for me. When I feel the mist of rain…I feel a rain that falls for me. When I see a candle burning softly…I see a flame that burns for me. When I smell the fragrance of something sweet…I see it created for me. When I stand on top of a mountain, the air feels thick all around me and the moisture settles upon my skin. The stillness and tranquility of the morning feels majestic. As the brilliant colors of the sun begin pressing on the horizon, my eyes take in the sight and then God speaks gently.. “This is for You, my beloved”. He reaches to the deepest places inside me and plays the strings of my heart. He makes himself real to me. He makes his love for me personal and tangible. He captures me like none other, and I cannot hide myself from his face. He steals my wholehearted devotion, and I am addicted to being in his presence. I ache every moment for the closeness of Him. I want to give all that’s inside of my heart…

God wants to show you how personal he is and how his heart bursts with love for YOU. Ask him to show you…ask him to make it real. Close your eyes… and follow your heart. Clear your mind of things that bring distraction, and make yourself available to sit before his feet. I dare you to ask…ask for yourself. He’s waiting. Blessed are the pure in heart that seek Him and do not let their minds become offended..

January 12, 2011

The Longing

Posted in Uncategorized at 4:42 PM by brittygirl2

It’s been rainy and cold here, which is unusual for the dry season in Thailand. It rained almost nonstop for 24 hours yesterday and today has been overcast and windy with rain on and off. I was out most of the day and when I returned home I grabbed my book and cuddled up on the couch with a blanket. After about an hour my stomach started growling and I decided it was time for an early dinner; I changed into my sweats and warmed up some broth. Worship music was playing on my computer and as I sat down…it began raining again. I love the sound of rain. It’s so relaxing and seems to have a soothing effect on me. I begin sipping my broth as the breeze blew slightly through the house and the raindrops begin to hit harder on the roof. I released a sigh of contentment… the mood seemed to be just right; until I glance down into my cup, and there and behold is a mosquito floating around inside my hot cup of broth. Great. Suddenly the rain stops, and my neighbor begins coughing and hacking up his spit. I was immediately transported out of the moment of ambience and back to real life. I started laughing to myself…I couldn’t help but find it amusing. I hadn’t even realized how wonderful the moment seemed until I saw the mosquito drowning, having ended his very short life. I started thinking about how it’s really not possible to have a moment here on earth that we would call “perfect”. No matter how great things seem..they can always become better; I mean this is life after all. Even if we could call a moment perfect, how would we really know it couldn’t get any better, when we don’t even know the feeling of complete satisfaction through ultimate perfection? The closest moments we experience of perfection are those moments with our Savior. Here on earth we are only truly satisfied when in the presence of Him, and yet still…we always come away longing for more of Him. He fills us, but keeps us coming back…never to be fully satisfied until eternity with Him.

I suddenly found myself wondering at the day I reach heaven’s gates, and enter for all of eternity; what will it be like to be in a place where you never have a need, never yearn for more, never have the desire for something better? A place where the refreshing rains never stop. A place where rest for our soul never wears out. A place where we never long because our needs are already met. A place where there isn’t a need for something greater, because we’re already in the greatest place.

Isaiah 65

“Behold, I will create new heavens and a new earth. The former things will not be remembered, nor will they come to mind. But be glad and rejoice forever in what I will create, for I will create Jerusalem to be a delight and its people a joy. I will rejoice over Jerusalem and take delight in my people; the sound of weeping and of crying will be heard in it no more. Never again will there be in it an infant who lives but a few days, or an old man who does not live out his years; he who dies at a hundred will be considered accursed. They will build houses and dwell in them; they will plant vineyards and eat their fruit. No longer will they build houses and others live in them, or plant and others eat. For as the days of a tree, so will be the days of my people; my chosen ones will long enjoy the work of their hands. They will not toil in vain or bear children doomed to misfortune; for they will be a people blessed by the Lord, and their descendants with them. Before they call I will answer; while they are still speaking I will hear. The wolf and the lamb will feed together, and the lion will eat straw like the ox, but dust will be the serpent’s food. They will neither harm nor destroy on all my holy mountain-says the Lord.”

January 11, 2011

One Who Stands Alone

Posted in Uncategorized at 8:57 AM by brittygirl2

How do you possibly find words to fully and completely describe our God?… For there are hardly words that explain the One who created life and breath… the One who is bigger than love itself. He is one that we can never fully understand; for how can flesh and mind comprehend the fullness and perfection of deity? He is one who stands alone.

I give praise to you our God who is perfect beyond our imagination. I praise you for your knowledge of all things and for the power of your name spoken. I praise you for your infinite love and your everlasting existence. I praise you for your hand that rules with justice and redemption. I praise you for your compassion and desire for all things good. I praise you for your light that is everywhere I look…that my face can never hide from.

Psalm 19

“The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of his hands.

Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they display knowledge.

There is no speech or language where their voice is not heard.

Their voice goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world.

In the heavens he has pitched a tent for the sun,

which is like a bridegroom coming forth from his pavilion,

like a champion rejoicing to run his course.

It rises at one end of the heavens and makes its circuit to the other; nothing is hidden from its heat.

The law of the Lord is perfect, reviving the soul.

The statues of the Lord are trustworthy, making wise of the simple.

The precepts of the Lord are right, giving joy to the heart.

The commands of the Lord are radiant, giving light to the eyes.

The fear of the Lord is pure, enduring forever.

The ordinances of the Lord are sure and altogether righteous.

They are more precious than gold, than much pure gold;

they are sweeter than honey, than honey from the comb.

By them is your servant warned; in keeping them there is great reward.

Who can discern his errors? Forgive my hidden faults.

Keep your servant also from willful sins; may they not rule over me.

Then I will be blameless, innocent of transgression.

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight,

O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.”

January 9, 2011

A Sacrificial Gift

Posted in Uncategorized at 7:25 PM by brittygirl2

During our first night of the Christmas celebration with Destiny Rescue, all the staff and kids gathered around the stage and found a seat as we all waited in anticipation for the festivities to begin. Christmas music was playing in the background, and the screen began rolling through a picture slideshow of different events that had taken place with DR. I let myself soak in the laughter of hearing the girls squeal every time their picture came up, and the boys cheer when one of their tricks made it on the screen. Even in just the 2 months that I have been here, I felt a sense of belonging… that I was in the midst of family. What a blessing it is that God continually gives us rich relationships and that he does not confine it to just a few people in our lifetime…no, the heart of God is too relational to be contained within limits!

I had decided to sit up at the very front where all the little kids were scattered about and one of the little girls came and plopped down in my lap. Her name is Pleh, and she’s Karissa’s sponsor child. I spend a lot of time with her, and she always seems to be close by my side. She plays games with me, shows me her new hiding places, smiles up at me with the most adoring face, and even manages to find time to sleep on my shoulder. She is not one for many words, but she has a quiet love with a stubbornness that can hold her own when needed. Like everyone else she is desperate for affection and the loving touch of someone close. She has a lightness about her that diminishes the hard things she’s been through in just her 3 years of life; a lightness that leaves you feeling happy for her joy, yet compassion for her heart that seems to be not as innocent as it should.

We sat quietly through pictures and then as they began handing out presents, she received hers and returned to her spot on my lap. The first package of paper being torn away revealed a box of cookies inside. She immediately opened them and slowly started eating one of the cookies, her smile getting bigger as she found delight in this little surprise! Within moments of taking her fist bite, she turned around and help up the package, offering me one of her cookies. I smiled, and proceeded to tell her in Thai… “No thank you, for you”. She smiled even bigger, and moved the cookies even closer to me. I looked into her face and read this look of her that said: “It’s ok, really…I want to share with you”. Tears began forming in my eyes as I reached down and took a cookie. I don’t even remember what kind of cookie it was, or what it tasted like…all I can remember was the sweetness of this child as she offered up to me one of her treasured presents. We both sat there in silence eating our cookies as the excitement of the children all around us got louder and louder. As she finished her cookie, she took another one then proceeded to give me yet another one as well. I once again tried to deny it, thanking her…but she wouldn’t take no for an answer. She knew the cookies were good, and she was not about to deny me the pleasure of missing out! This time I really choked back the tears as I ate a second cookie. I felt like such a robber stealing 2 of her 5 cookies; yet with one look into her face came the realization that I couldn’t turn away her gift. She found joy in being able to share something that was hers to give, and it wasn’t about how many cookies she had, but rather knowing she was not enjoying them alone.

Pleh made me feel special, and her giving heart is sweeter than anything else she could offer. Oh that we would all have such a childlike heart!! That we would be lost in the desire to give freely to others…no matter the cost; and that we would find joy in it. To see giving as a great reward and the power it holds in impacting others. I will forever remember that sweet, little face…and that precious little heart; as she took part of hers, and placed it in mine.

January 3, 2011

“You Lift Me Up”

Posted in Uncategorized at 2:55 PM by brittygirl2

These past couple days I have been in a greater place of surrender and brokenness as God is continuing to strip away the things in my heart that hinder me from pressing on towards Him. The revelation comes, and with it the reality that I am a sinful person. Its often a place of wanting to break free from sin and its effects…yet not always knowing how to reach that place of redemption. I feel so broken – and it is in those times of my brokenness more than ever, that I have to rely on God to help me take the step towards Him. Those are the moments when I need His strength and grace the most… the moments when I find myself longing for the day where we are made perfect in Christ. However until that day comes, it means pressing in deeper, pressing in harder, and longing for intimacy above else, while clinging to the hope that life here on this earth is not eternity. It means getting up when I fall, and seeing my weakness as time for God to mold me and shape me, and lift me back up. For as much as I want to fly…

I can’t fly without falling. I have to grow into my wings.

This song describes it perfectly: You Lift Me Up – The Afters

 

December 26, 2010

Making History

Posted in Uncategorized at 3:19 PM by brittygirl2

A good friend of mine recently told me of a quote by George Elliott that goes like this: “Happy people and happy nations have no history…we mark our history- personal or national, by the struggles, conflicts, battles & wars. Without struggles, there is no history”. His encouragement to me was to remember that through all my struggles, God is sovereign. He is allowing me to pass through the deep waters so that I might have a heritage and a story to pass on.

As I thought about those words I realized how true that is. I started thinking about some of the people in history that I admire most – George Washington, Harriet Tubman, Gladys Aylward, Queen Esther, Pocahontas, Abraham & Sarah, Mary mother of Jesus, Anne Frank, Moses, John the Baptist….the list goes on and on. Not one of those people made history or created a legacy to pass on because they had an easy life. Every one of them had battles that they had to fight, and fight to win. It took blood, sweat and tears poured out again and again to persevere through each mountain that was placed in front of them and a knowledge that God was their strength and might. It took hope that they were living for something more. It took a daily surrender of the will, and dying to the flesh- knowing that their reward was in Christ Jesus and in spending eternity with Him. It took a perspective of looking at things bigger than themselves, and bigger than their lifetime.

James 1:2-4 “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”

My own struggles often seem at the forefront of my mind and I realized how much I desire to make a history worth telling, a legacy thats worth passing on. My constant prayer is that I will embrace my struggles and see them as pure joy. Pure Joy.

That I will recognize firsthand the wisdom and maturity that comes with facing your mountains…and walking towards them.

That I will be an inspiration to others that a life lived with someone as radical as our Heavenly Father is something that NOTHING else on earth can ever give you, that nothing else can every replace.

We all have the desire to leave behind a legacy. We all have the desire to leave a piece of us behind in history that will one day be the inspiration for someone to go for it, leaving all else behind. You have the desire too, just like me. God put that desire there because He wants us each to go for it. All out. He wants us to live freely without fear or abandon…or without selfish desires holding us back. I’m on this journey…and I have vision for where I want to be. I want God to help me climb every mountain so that we can stand at the top together, and I can feel the beauty and wonder of the earth as he declares his passionate love for Me. That I will feel his heart beat as he declares his desire for all nations. That I will feel the earth shake and tremble as he declares his will to be done. And that I will feel the power of His voice thundering as he declares triumph over all.

I sure don’t want to miss out….so what’s stopping you?

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